Settling

I always had a problem with this term for going for the next best thing instead of what you wanted from the start. Ya know, like "if you can't be with the one you love, then love the one you're with" type of deal. The shit just sounds cheap and backhanded. People are always asking and then looking for perfection. 100%!!! That ideal person has to be complete. Not a fraction of what ya want! Not partially fitting to your tastes with a few vices or undesireables thrown here or there. But the cup beng filled completely. We have all looked for them.

But what happens when the ideal person you want...in real life...doesn't want you?

Stupid shit

Why am I still trying to figure out why its bad to have a friends as lovers? I don't think anything is wrong with it, but the consensus believes otherwise. Some of my female friends would be coooool to have as a girlfriend. BUT

BUT!!!!!

They don't see things that way. Which is cool. I just have to find somebody "like them" to make me happy. The thing is, I keep making new friends who ain't down to bump uglies. Its becoming so troublesome.

Perhaps I should just start messing with chicks that hate my guts or just want to be my mortal nemesis.

What had happened was.....

So, I went home for the holidays and got down with the ex-girlfriend who is now going to law school in Minnesota. BAD MISTAKE!!! My mojo not only hasn't left me, but its a bit too potent when mixed with her chemical make-up. I tried to avoid her and was somewhat successful until she dropped a note off at my Mother's house for me to read. Luckily, I caught it before anybody else did. Can you imagine having your sister and Mother read a note from a girl, that you're really not trying to have a relationship with, that says the same reasons why she loves you(you read that right!) is the same reasons why she can't stand you?

RRRRRRUUUUUUUUUUUUUNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!

So now as of this moment I have my cellphone off so that she'll get the hint that I'm not trying to go that route. I'm not trying to be responsible for her bad days at her clinical office and how all her friends up there are celebrating their little child's birthday. Which in turn makes her wish that she was already married and had kids. I ain't the one, mu'fucka....

I'm back at school finishing up my VERY last semester of classes. It feels good, yeah(c) Tony! Toni! Tone!